Every week for the last 8 weeks, I've clicked on the "new post" tab on my blog, hoping that I'd feel overcome with a wave of inspiration and paragraphs of insightful things to say. Writing is one of my favourite forms of expression and if you're a regular here you probably know that short blogs & captions aren't really my strong suit - I tend to talk a lot!
But funnily enough, throughout this lockdown, the last thing I've wanted to do is write a blog post. At the beginning of the pandemic, I had a long list of ideas and things that I wanted to write about to help others navigate this time, as well as a ton of travel blog posts that I never quite got around to writing. But every time I've come to write, I've felt so mentally blocked and totally uninspired. Honestly, you should see all the semi-started blog posts sitting in my drafts it's actually ridiculous!
I soon realised after a few weeks of trying and failing, that if I have to force it so much, and if it's not working, I probably shouldn't do it. And since then, I've ended up unintentionally having the longest break from blogging since I first started 5 and a half years ago. Being honest I felt a little guilty at first, especially because as a creator, my job in this time has been to provide support and entertainment to people, and I felt that by not blogging I sort of wasn't doing my job properly. I definitely felt like a bad blogger!
However, if there's one thing that this pandemic and lockdown has taught me, it's that we need to go easier on ourselves and simply surviving during this time is more than enough. I'm incredibly hard on myself and getting used to being less productive but also having less capacity to be super productive and do a million things in a day definitely took a while.
Despite not writing I've still managed to stay creative in a lot of ways and I've been redirecting my energy into filming and editing videos for YouTube, creating TikToks, connecting with more people on Instagram, wedding planning and doing so much house organisation that Marie Kondo would be proud haha. It's actually been nice to lift the pressure and do the things that I've wanted to do rather than what I felt like I should be doing, and it's taught me how important this is.
Anyway, I just wanted to provide a little update as to where I've been as I know I've been pretty non-existent on here. I hope you guys are doing okay wherever you are in the world. I have plenty of posts coming up so keep an eye out for those, and I'm excited to get back into a routine of blogging and general life now that lockdown has started to ease up!
Has anyone else felt a similar way during lockdown? How have you all been coping? xx